"tinta dari ilham si kerdil yg mencari selautan MARDHATILLAH ini hanyalah pandangan diri saya dlm menjalani kehidupan harian...sedikit perkongsian diselitkan buat renungan bersama...penulisan ini tiada selain dari hanya..thalaban liridha ar rahman(mencari keredhaanNya) dan shirahan liqulubil ikhwan (menyenangkan hati sahabat2).."

..mg ALLAH mengampuniku dgn setiap pembacaan,ampuni keluargaku,ampuni muslimin muslimat keseluruhannya..

Saturday, March 28, 2009

mabit yang indah...

3 pesanan
Bismillahirrahmanirraheem

alhamdulillah,saya masih mampu mencoretkan tinta kerdil..

asif kpd sahabat2...
sudah seminggu saya kembali ke bumi manipal setelah bercuti selama sebulan..
alhamdulillah...
once again,i've been admitted to Kasturba Hospital due to persistent stomach pain..alhamdulillah,am getting much better now..jazakumullah khair to all yg mendoakan dan supportive..hanya ALLAH yang mampu membalas..
terlalu banyak tugasan yang menanti..namun terasa terlalu sedikit masa yang ada untuk melunaskan..

last nite saya mabit(bermalam) di rumah adik2 usrah..sblm pergi,badan start panas n i suffered from dyspnea(difficulty in breathing) starting asar smpi maghrib..
janji dgn adik2 usrah akan isya berjemaah bersama..
hampir2 saya membatalkan saat2 akhir namun semangat mereka mengentalkan niat saya..
akhirnya pertemuan diizinkanNya dgn cukup harmoni dan mahabbah..tiap2 mereka bawa makanan masing2..
kami mulakan pertemuan dengan solat isya berjemaah dan disusuli muzakarah..
bahagianya berada dalam majlis ilmu..
senyuman dan riak wajah mereka menyejukkan hati..penat dan sakit yang terasa tenggelam sedikit demi sedikit..
(^_^)

beginilah kehidupan seorang hamba kerdil...

masih terasa lebih banyak ruang masa yg diisi dgn kelalaian..

kemudian perbincangan kami berterusan dgn tafsir quran dan hadis...
seronok terasa belajar hadis...adik2 semua menunjukkan minat yang mendalam..
rupanya jiwa2 kontang sentiasa menagih utk diisi..jiwa2 ini mahu terasa manis belajar hadis..
penghujung halaqah mlm itu,saya minta mereka hafal sebuah hadis yang mudah dan ringkas..
tidak ada seorang pun terasa berat malah berlumba2 utk hafal..

"la yu'minu ahadukum hatta yuhibbu li akhihi ma yuhibbu linafsih"
-tidak beriman(sempurna iman) sesorang itu sehingga dia mencintai saudaranya sepertimana dia mencintai dirinya sendiri-

dlm tempoh kurang 10 minit,mereka sudah mampu melafazkan matan walaupun sedikit terhenti henti..

dan kami bertekad akan teruskan untuk hafal hadis2 lain..insyaALLAH...

adik2,betapa gembiranya hati ini bila melihat setiap dari kalian berupaya menghafal dan menyelami maksud hadis tersebut...

betapa besarnya nilai muhasabah kita semua dalam persaudaraan bila hadis ini menjadi sandaran..pesan rasulullah menjadi tujuan...

pagi esoknya disusuli qiamullail..walau ada di antara kami yg tak terjaga,namun subuh tetap tepat dlm waktunya...

andai apa yang berlaku semalaman yg lalu menjadi rutin kita semua,alangkah redupnya hati terasa...sentiasa diingatkan dan mengingatkan..

moga masih ada lagi masa untuk kita semua bersama2 dlm taman ilmu..

ahli2 rumah yang tersayang,terima kasih atas kesanggupan kalian melayan keinginan diri yg kerdil ini utk berjemaah bersama...
terasa malu tatkala memimpin solat jemaah..sungguh malu..sungguh..sungguh malu..
ALLAH Maha Mengetahui betapa terasa diri ini sgt2 kerdil..sgt hina dgn kelemahan diri dan dosa2..
bukan sengaja terkadang diri mengelat untuk memimpin solat..
bantulah diri saya untuk dekat denganNya..
pimpinlah juga diri ini...
untuk memimpin dan dipimpin...

P/S:adik,thnks so much for ur time solat jemaah with me..and allow me to remind myself for anything that i've miss..sayang adik!...hubban lillah..



..people dont care how much we know untill they know how much we care..
_ISLAM MILIK BERSAMA_

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

kosong...mampukah diisi..mengisi...terisi?

1 pesanan

snap dari dlm pesawat..on d way to bandung


Assalamualaikum warahmatullah..

salam hangat buat semua..

ptg tadi saya tertidur dlm bacaan buku ESQ bekalan dari kak dila dari Bandung..

"mak teh,angkat telepon...mak teh,cepat angkat telepon!!"

kedengaran bertubi2...

terasa malas...

terpampang di skrin..

'phone call from 019-73_ _ _ _ _ '

no yang tak dikenali..

sekali lagi kedengaran..ringing tone suara Aqil.."mak teh,angkat telepon...mak teh,cepat angkat telepon!!"

masih kubiarkan..sengaja dibiarkan..badan letih..layu..

akhirnya saya terima servis pesanan ringkas (SMS)..

"salam,naufa..Sara nak tanya something..perlu cakap dengan naufa..tadi Sara kol tapi tak berjawab..insyaALLAH lepas isya' Sara kol lg"

lantas hati ini terkedu..."astaghfirullah..erm..apa aku dah buat ni..ini da'wah fardhiah yang sedang aku jalani..mad'u itu sgt memerlukan..dan aku masih bisa melayan tidur dan lelah??"

lantas SMS td saya jawab dgn ringkas..minta return kol dilakukan segera kerana malam itu juga saya perlu ziarah ke rumah makcik di sungai buluh..takut tak sempat 'melayan' perbualan dgn Sara.

'message delivered'

seusai lebih kurang 5 minit,handphone kembali bising..

Rupanya sepeninggalan saya jaulah ke Bandung,Sara cuba memandu dirinya sendiri untuk mendekati Islam..dia mencari sendiri artikel2 di internet dan sebagainya..
adunya,jiwanya kosong..kosong setelah terisi dgn ketenangan solat dan pengenalan tentang Islam..
katanya..dirinya terasa kosong..hanya terisi sementara..kemudian perasaan tersebut tergantung..seolah tiada kesinambungan..
namun jelasnya,kosong yg dilalui kini tidak seperti dulu..
dulunya,kosong yg mencari untuk diisi..kosong yang mengelirukan..
tapi kini kekosongan yang dialami kerana butuh panduan dan pengisian..

dpt saya analogikan keadaan Sara seperti org yang kelaparan..di hadapannya tersedia hidangan yang enak dan sedap..telah dilihat dan dibau..tapi belum mampu untuk menggapai,merasa dan mengisi kekosongan perut itu..

Tambahan..pencariannya bersendirian tiada guideline..artikel2 di internet yang berselerakan..tak ditapis menambah kekeliruan dan kebuntuan dalam dirinya..

saya lebih byk mendengar..cuba merungkai segala rumit dan sulit..kusut yang menyuntuk..

panjang kami bercerita..hingga hampir maghrib..saya hentikan perbualan di situ dan berjanji akan menghubunginya semula A.S.A.P..

dalam perjalanan ke sg buluh...diri kerdil ini termenung sejenak....terlalu byk kerja yg menanti..terasa tidak sebanding dgn masa 24 jam yg dimiliki...

maaf teman2..tak sempat saya continue travelog jaulah ke bandung dan jakarta..akan saya kongsikan kemudian..insyaALLAH..

mohon iringan doa kalian..

sedikit perkongsian..
teringat sekeping kertas tersimpan rapi di dinding kamar ayah dan mak..
pesanan ini jugalah yang selalu ayah titipkan sbg bekal pergaulan...agar menjadi orang yang ikhlas,jujur dan rendah hati..berlapang dada dalam setiap permasalahan..

kemas di dinding kamar ayah dan makhasil tulisan ruqayyah..yang tersemat di pintu refrigerator


ya Rabbana,
ajari kami tersenyum..
meski berat pundak ini memikul..
ajari kami berlapang dada..
meski banyak hal menyesakkan jiwa..
ajari kami memaafkan..
meski banyak kesalahan dilakukan..
ajari kami agar tetap rendah hati dalam ketaatan..
agar kami tetap bersyukur dlm kegetiran..
turunkan nikmat dalam tiap ibadah kami..
turunkanlah kegetaran dalam langkah kami..
menapaki jalan terjal..
mendaki kala sendiri..
kukuhkan ruh mawaddah hubban lillah dlm ikatan kami..

~jaulah bandung & jakarta 2009~



..people dont care how much we know untill they know how much we care..
_ISLAM MILIK BERSAMA_

Monday, March 16, 2009

laut pemisah,namun hati terpaut sudah...

0 pesanan
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

kaifahaluk akhuwat dan akhawat?
kabare?

moga semua dlm keadaaan sejahtera jasmani dan rohani..insyaALLAH..

hampir sebulan saya meninggalkan bumi manipal..untuk pulang ke m'sia..
di m'sia,saya jaulah ke bumi jakarta dan bandung lebih seminggu..
terlalu banyak yang mahu dikongsikan..
menimbun manis madu sepanjang cuti kali ini..
hati runtun sayu mengenang sisa hari di m'sia..
pilu melihat wajah ayah dan mak..
pilu menatap setiap mata yang bergenang air jernih..
kak long dan keluarga,abg long dan kak ema yg belum sempat kutatap semenjak menjadi raja sehari..
kak cik..
naheed..
abdullah..
Im..
zainab..
ruqayya..
hafsa...
safiya..

keluarga di kelantan dan melaka yang belum sempat ku lewati..
hampir utk mampir di bumi Sabak...tapi izin ALLAH menentukan segalnya..
perjalanan terbatas...
namun kehadiran mereka menceriakan...
tak sabar menanti hari mendatang..moga terus diizinkanNya..

letih..jerih..perjalanan jaulah yang tak mungkin dilupakan..
fizikal yg lelah dan lemah melalui hari2 di sana..
namun semangat ukhuwah dan spirit muslim mengatasi segalanya..
alhamdulillah..syukur lillah..ALLAH mengizinkan segalaNya..
rapi...
cantik..

pertama kali jejak di bumi bandung..terasa asing..
airport kecil Husein Sastranegara menyambut layu..
namun mekar terasa akan ramah mereka..
adik2 KTT yg dikasihi..terima kasih atas sambutan kalian..
hangat terasa kasih kalian...
nurul,ereen,fatin,duha,sarifah,ayu,muniri,wewe,nurul keciq,yati gemuk pink,teng aisyah,lala,syuhada,badihah,izzati,ecah,fae,mus..
adik2 KTT FK 07..

rindu melambai2 untuk kembali ke sana..
sakit demam ditemani..
alhamdulillah..
hebatnya ukhuwah..

fatin,perjalanan pergi dan pulang sentiasa terisi...biar kita bertemu dlm masa terbatas..biar sembang kita hanya dalam jalan pulang..yang pasti..tiap detik itu sentiasa bermain2 seperti tayangan gambar lewat 60-an...bersama adik2 UNPAD FK08 after majlis hafazan..

kak dila n kak zahidah..syukur lillah..pertemuan yang tak dijangka..
thanks for d food..laziizah.. ya Rabbana,
ajari kami tersenyum..
meski berat pundak ini memikul..
ajari kami berlapang dada..
meski banyak hal menyesakkan jiwa..
ajari kami memaafkan..
meski banyak kesalahan dilakukan..
ajari kami agar tetap rendah hati dalam ketaatan..
agar kami tetap bersyukur dlm kegetiran..
turunkan nikmat dalam tiap ibadah kami..
turunkanlah kegetaran dalam langkah kami..
menapaki jalan terjal..
mendaki kala sendiri..
kukuhkan ruh mawaddah hubban lillah dlm ikatan kami..

~jaulah bandung & jakarta 2009~

to be continue...


..people dont care how much we know untill they know how much we care..
_ISLAM MILIK BERSAMA_

Thursday, February 26, 2009

suRpriseD!!

6 pesanan
Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

jizayyak/yik akhi wa ukhti?
moga semua dlm SELAMAT dan sihat..insyaALLAH..

Alhamdulillah..saya kini berada di tanah air sehingga 20 mac..
Kepulangan kali ni dirahsiakan dari family..alhamdulillah..syukur lillah..kejutan saya utk keluarga berjaya!..thnks kpd yg membantu!..

suasana bermakna bertambah syahdu dgn reaksi mak ayah dan adik2..

my SMS to ayah during KTM ride from KL sentral to subang jaya..

naufa:assalamualaikum ayah..surprised!naufa kt kl sentral ni..balik naik air asia..ayah kat ofis lg ke?nk minta ayah tolong ayah or anyone available to fetch me..

ayah:waalaikumussalam..what?dis was a crazy surprised!..ayah in Miri now..go and call home..go surprised them!(ayah was in d meeting!i wonder how he behave...hehe..)

then i call home..after fail to reach kak cik(my elder sister)

naufa:assalamualaikum mak..mak sihat ko?
mak:alhamdulillah..sihat..
naufa:mak..buleh tak amik naufa kt subang?
mak:subang??..subang mano?
naufa:subang jaya..KTM subang..
mak:ha?!*nawok!
naufa:sungguh* nih!dok atah* komuter doh nih..dari KL sentral..
mak:nawok!..keto takdok..
naufa:ha?!!(dah bimbang takde org nk fetch)..sapo amik keto?duo2 ko takdok?sungguh nih..
mak:ho laa..mak tipu jugok la..keto ado..royak molek..dok mano?
naufa:sungguh..kt malaysia..dok atah komuter ni...(nak nangis dah...)td try kol kak cik dio tok angkat..surprised!!!!..naufa balik ni!
mak:laaa....sungguh?dok mano doh ni?nok sapa doh ko?
naufa:dok lg..baru naik..
mak:ok2..mak gerak skrg...

(tersenyum lega..hati berbunga2...menanti utk tiba..hujan petang memeriahkan suasana..dah lama tak rasa hujan..)

sampai saja di rumah,kelihatan zainab sedang mutolaah pelajaran..zainab adik saya..anak ke-8 dari 11 org adik beradik kami..saya beranggapan zainab telah pun dimaklumkan kepulangan saya yang mengejut..dgn selamba saya menyapa zainab..

naufa:hai nab!..wat gapo tuh mek?
zainab:(terpinga2)..kak tehhhh!!!!...kak tehhhhhhh!!!...kak tehhhhh!...(she screamed sooo loud that make me puzzled on her reaction!)
naufa:aik..nab belum tahu ke?laa...(sambil melapangkan kedua belah tgn)

zainab bangun dan memeluk saya dgn erat...hati jadi sayu melihat air mata jernih bergenang dari kelopak mata adik saya yang meningkat remaja..saya sambut pelukan eratnya..air mata jatuh tak henti..nab dear..kata tak terucap..namun akak terharu dan sayu..sayang nab!

then i ask her..
naufa:nape nab nangis?
zainab:ye la..nab tak percaya..betul ke ni kak teh??nape tak bagi tahu nk balik?
naufa:(senyum bahagia..)..if bagitahu tak jadi la surprised...
zainab:kak teh tipu..kate nk jalan2..tak balik..(sambil memeluk erat seperti tak mahu dilepaskan)

alhamdulillah..segalanya berjalan lancar..cuma masih menanti2..bila la nak jumpa naheed....kami membesar bersama..tp makin dewasa kami makin terpisah dek jarak dan masa..sibuk dgn urusan dan study masing..
"naheed..balik la...akak tak lama ni..."

menunggu juga untuk bertemu abg ngah(the only abang in my life) dan kak emma yang selamat diijabkabulkan 25 oktober tahun lepas tanpa kehadiran saya...
pulanglah...

Ya ALLAH..syukur tak terhingga..masih diizinkan untuk menatap wajah2 yg kupendam rindu..yg bersama darah mengalir ku harungi hidup...darah istimewa...^_^

InsyaALLAH,saya bakal ke Bandung dan Jakarata untuk ikuti program dan daurah di sana..sisters bandung dan jakarta,ana juga tak sabar untuk bertemu kalian..mohon pertemuan ini diizinkanNya..

Mengenai perkembangan Sara,saya sudah menghubungi beliau dan telah menetapkan masa dan tarikh untuk berjumpa beliau..insyaALLAH selepas pulang dari Bandung..
Baru2 ini Sara telah bertanyakan kemusykilannya tentang rukun syahadah..dia berasa keliru apa yang dimaksudkan dgn rukun syahadah..katanya dia diberitahu rukun syahadah ada dua..
jadi...apa yang dua rukun itu????
sebenarnya,tidak harus ada kekeliruan sekirang kita benar memahami pengertian syahadatain...syhadatul haq..
mengapa syahdah itu ada dua?
apa yg dimaksudkan dgn syahadah?
apa pula syahdatul haq?

hakikat persoalan yang diberikan sudah jelas..namun kerana persoalan dan mungkin kurang ambil tahu pada peringkat asas,sesiapa juga boleh mengeluarkan pelbagai soalan yang mengelirukan diri sendiri..
betapa pentingnya memahami syahadah agar iman kita tidak goyah..
jika dalam huraian dari Abu Al'Ala AL maududi menyebutkan iman itu adalah cantuman ilmu,faham dan yakin..begitu juga la dlm hal syahadah...ianya berkait dgn iman..
perlu ilmu,faham dan yakin...
penyaksian(confession) yang sgt perlu dgn rasa zuqq dlm hati..diiringi kesaksian dgn jasmani melalui perlakuan yang memenuhi syahadah..

naufa azhari (2/23/2009 6:21:37 PM): Sara ni tak menjawab soalan naufa
naufa azhari (2/23/2009 6:21:41 PM): about ur life
naufa azhari (2/23/2009 6:21:55 PM): ur keyakinan pada ALLAH dan rasulullah
Sara (2/23/2009 6:21:58 PM): kena jwb ke?
naufa azhari (2/23/2009 6:23:53 PM): kena la
naufa azhari (2/23/2009 6:24:04 PM): naufa nk tahu juga..ada progress positive ke
Sara (2/23/2009 6:24:19 PM): ok..ok.. bos
Sara (2/23/2009 6:24:25 PM): jujur Sara kata
Sara (2/23/2009 6:24:40 PM): sekrg keyakinan pd Allah alhamdulillah
Sara (2/23/2009 6:24:44 PM): Sara stress je Sara solat
Sara (2/23/2009 6:25:00 PM): Sara tension je Sara cool then amik wuduk
naufa azhari (2/23/2009 6:25:05 PM): ada tak Sara rasa Sara jumpa diri Sara yg baru?
Sara (2/23/2009 6:25:07 PM): buat cam Naufa ajar
naufa azhari (2/23/2009 6:25:11 PM): yg dulu Sara tak jumpa lg?
Sara (2/23/2009 6:25:30 PM): separuh buat masa ni
Sara (2/23/2009 6:25:46 PM): bila ingat semula buat Sara senyum sorang
Sara (2/23/2009 6:25:47 PM): hehehe
Sara (2/23/2009 6:25:55 PM): tp at least solat la
naufa azhari (2/23/2009 6:26:17 PM): yup
Sara (2/23/2009 6:26:25 PM): dan baca quran..Sara pun tak percaya bila masuk time solat jika tak solat..mcm bersalah la pula
Sara (2/23/2009 6:26:40 PM): so malas ke tak..Sara solat then baru buat perkara lain
naufa azhari (2/23/2009 6:26:44 PM): solat tu antara Sara dgn ALLAH..org yg tak solat seolah2 tak jumpa hubungan dgn ALLAH..
naufa azhari (2/23/2009 6:26:50 PM): alhamdulillah
naufa azhari (2/23/2009 6:26:59 PM): mudah mudahan perkara baik yg lain menyusul
Sara (2/23/2009 6:27:03 PM): Sara setuju
Sara (2/23/2009 6:27:10 PM): harap begitu arr...
Sara (2/23/2009 6:27:28 PM): buat apa yg Sara yakin sekrg
Sara (2/23/2009 6:27:36 PM): kalau Sara nak grab semua..
Sara (2/23/2009 6:27:51 PM): pening la
Sara (2/23/2009 6:27:54 PM): hehehe
Sara (2/23/2009 6:28:16 PM): buku Fadhilat Amal tu..ingat Sara nak pulang balik pd kwn Sara
Sara (2/23/2009 6:28:21 PM): tka bole baca la NAufa
Sara (2/23/2009 6:28:36 PM): makin baca..makin keliru..sampai rasa mcm islam ni teruk sgt la pulak
Sara (2/23/2009 6:30:07 PM): jd Sara ikut apa Naufa ckp yg kata islam ini indah
naufa azhari (2/23/2009 6:30:12 PM): hmm..kitab tu perlu guru juga utk org yg sedang jinak2 dlm kefahaman
Sara (2/23/2009 6:30:47 PM): ala...mintak tolong org semua org ckp..apa yg ada persoalan kepala tu tak leh layan..baca jer
Sara (2/23/2009 6:31:13 PM): nnt Allah talbiah..naik bosan Sara dgr...
Sara (2/23/2009 6:31:42 PM): jd Sara rasa Sara ni masih kekurangan..tak pe la lum ada rezki nak baca buku zuhud mcm ni
Sara (2/23/2009 6:32:03 PM): Sara stress je Sara ingat nasihat Naufa
Sara (2/23/2009 6:32:13 PM): sabo..sabo..dan sabo
Sara (2/23/2009 6:32:20 PM): hehehe
naufa azhari (2/23/2009 6:32:36 PM): sabar lillah
naufa azhari (2/23/2009 6:32:46 PM): insyaALLAH ada jalan ALLAH buka utk Sara
Sara (2/23/2009 6:33:01 PM): insya-allah Naufa...moga2 ada arr

Sara (2/23/2009 6:33:17 PM): tp Sara cool je
Sara (2/23/2009 6:33:21 PM): sbb siang Sara bz dgn keje
Sara (2/23/2009 6:33:31 PM): mlm baru la nak muhasabah diri
Sara (2/23/2009 6:34:33 PM): ehh Sara nak tahu
Sara (2/23/2009 6:34:42 PM): betul ke syahadah ada rukun?
Sara (2/23/2009 6:34:54 PM): selama ni Sara tau rukun iman dan rukun islam
Sara (2/23/2009 6:35:00 PM): tambah dgn rukun solat je
Sara (2/23/2009 6:35:35 PM): dan betul ke..kalau tak yakin sepenuhnya pd apa rukun syahadah tu
Sara (2/23/2009 6:35:41 PM): lum lengkap lagi
naufa azhari (2/23/2009 6:39:21 PM): maaf Sara
Sara (2/23/2009 6:39:33 PM): tak pe..kalau tak leh jwb
naufa azhari (2/23/2009 6:39:36 PM): td ckp telefon jap..huhu..sedikit gangguan
naufa azhari (2/23/2009 6:39:41 PM): nk jawab la ni
naufa azhari (2/23/2009 6:39:42 PM): Sara nih
naufa azhari (2/23/2009 6:39:44 PM): sabor la
Sara (2/23/2009 6:39:45 PM): ohh..ingat kan apa td
Sara (2/23/2009 6:39:49 PM): (senyum)
Sara (2/23/2009 6:39:53 PM): ok..ok
naufa azhari (2/23/2009 6:40:44 PM): ok..let make it simple and understandable
naufa azhari (2/23/2009 6:40:54 PM): apa yg Sara fhm dgn syahadah?
Sara (2/23/2009 6:41:09 PM): ok..ucap dua kalimah syahadah
Sara (2/23/2009 6:41:21 PM): betul kan?
Sara (2/23/2009 6:41:27 PM): tu jer kan?
naufa azhari (2/23/2009 6:43:00 PM): apa dua kalimah tu?
Sara (2/23/2009 6:43:31 PM): 'Tiada Tuhan melainkan Allah,dan NAbi muhammad pesuruh Allah
Sara (2/23/2009 6:43:43 PM): betul kan?
naufa azhari (2/23/2009 6:43:51 PM):Sara rasa betul ke?(provoke her)
Sara (2/23/2009 6:43:52 PM): tu jer kan?
Sara (2/23/2009 6:44:03 PM): yup...
Sara (2/23/2009 6:44:09 PM): 100%
Sara (2/23/2009 6:44:16 PM): tu la yg Sara sebut dlm solat Sara
Sara (2/23/2009 6:44:21 PM): takkan ada lain pula?
naufa azhari (2/23/2009 6:44:22 PM): ok...Sara yakin dgn kedua duanya?
Sara (2/23/2009 6:44:45 PM): nak jwb jujur ke x?
naufa azhari (2/23/2009 6:44:53 PM): jujur la
Sara (2/23/2009 6:45:09 PM): serius jujur ni?
naufa azhari (2/23/2009 6:45:36 PM): yup
Sara (2/23/2009 6:45:42 PM): ok..
Sara (2/23/2009 6:45:45 PM): secara jujur..
Sara (2/23/2009 6:46:25 PM): Sara sgtt yakin pada bhwsanya Tiada Tuhan yg ku sembah adalah Allah'
Sara (2/23/2009 6:46:25 PM): yup
Sara (2/23/2009 6:46:25 PM): tu pengakuan jujur Sara

naufa azhari (2/23/2009 6:49:02 PM): teruskan
Sara (2/23/2009 6:49:25 PM): emm...yg kedua tu...
Sara (2/23/2009 6:50:42 PM): Sara kalau sebut shj tp...
Sara (2/23/2009 6:51:16 PM): tak kuat percaya lg
naufa azhari (2/23/2009 6:51:47 PM): ok

naufa azhari (2/23/2009 6:52:01 PM): rukun yg dimaksudkan dlm syahadah adalah dua kalimah tu
naufa azhari (2/23/2009 6:52:21 PM): keduanya kena kuat keyakinannya
naufa azhari (2/23/2009 6:52:28 PM): tanpa berbelah bahagi
naufa azhari (2/23/2009 6:52:46 PM): kerana kalimah kedua juga membuktikan keyakinan pada kalimah pertama
naufa azhari (2/23/2009 6:54:05 PM): meyakini ALLAH sbg tuhan utk ditaati bermakna juga mentaati perintah ALLAH yakni perintahnya utk meyakini rasulullah sebagai nabi(pesuruh) ALLAH yg terakhir
naufa azhari (2/23/2009 6:54:28 PM): dan meyakini nabi yang terakhir turut bermakna meyakini nabi2 yg sebelumnya
Sara (2/23/2009 6:55:21 PM): meyakini nabi yang terakhir bermakna meyakini nabi2 yg sebelumnya..
“Sesiapa yang mentaati Rasul maka sesungguhnya ia telah mentaati Allah.” (An-Nisa’: 80)

naufa azhari (2/23/2009 6:55:28 PM): yup
Anis Sa (2/23/2009 6:55:28 PM): maksudnya?

(sedikit gangguan beberapa ketika..)

naufa azhari (2/23/2009 7:01:19 PM): kita kembali pd persoalan asal
Sara (2/23/2009 7:01:23 PM): wokeh
naufa azhari (2/23/2009 7:01:59 PM): nabi muhammad membenarkan ajaran2 ALLAH yg disampaikan oleh nabi2 sebelumnya..bermakna membenarkn nabi muhammad juga kita telah memebenaarkan nabi2 ALLAh yg lain
Sara (2/23/2009 7:03:55 PM): ok
Sara (2/23/2009 7:05:39 PM): telah memebenaarkan nabi2 ALLAh yg lain
Sara (2/23/2009 7:05:39 PM): bermakna suruh menyembah Allah yg satu kan?
Sara (2/23/2009 7:05:44 PM): dan melakukan yg disuruh berlandaskan Al-quran
naufa azhari (2/23/2009 7:05:47 PM): ye saya
naufa azhari (2/23/2009 7:05:50 PM): benar
Sara (2/23/2009 7:06:22 PM): kita hanya perlu percayai dia shj kerana dia penyampai ajaran islam kan?
naufa azhari (2/23/2009 7:11:04 PM): maksud Sara?(mahu tahu apa yg difahami Sara)
naufa azhari (2/23/2009 7:11:15 PM): percaya mcmana?
Sara (2/23/2009 7:11:22 PM): iye la..
Sara (2/23/2009 7:11:36 PM): Sara pelik sikit
Sara (2/23/2009 7:11:51 PM): masa nabi musa atau ibrahim atau nabi2 lain
Sara (2/23/2009 7:12:01 PM): sampaikan ajaran Allah
Sara (2/23/2009 7:12:14 PM): Allah hanya kata 'sembah pd-Nya shj'
Sara (2/23/2009 7:12:45 PM): tak wujud pula dua kalimah syahadah utk mereka yg nak peluk islam
Sara (2/23/2009 7:13:08 PM): kenapa bila zmn N.Muhamamd jer kena dua kalimah syahadah?
naufa azhari (2/23/2009 7:14:12 PM): ok...
naufa azhari (2/23/2009 7:14:41 PM): utk nabi2 yg sebelumnya..secara tak langsung dengan ALLAH mengutus Nabi pada sesuatu kaum tu,ALLAH telah perintahkan ummat pada masa tu utk taat pada nabi mereka
Sara (2/23/2009 7:14:57 PM): ok..
Sara (2/23/2009 7:15:01 PM): lepas tu
naufa azhari (2/23/2009 7:15:04 PM): bezanya dgn zaman nabi muhammad..nabi muhammad ditentukan ALLAH sbg nabi terakhir
naufa azhari (2/23/2009 7:15:14 PM): bermakna tiada lagi nabi selepas baginda
naufa azhari (2/23/2009 7:17:14 PM): mengakui baginda sbg pesuruh ALLAH yg terakhir bermaksud mengakui juga bahawa agama ALLAH yg disampaikan oleh baginda tu jg yg sempurna dan tiada lagi selepasnya.penambahan atau penolakan..
naufa azhari (2/23/2009 7:17:38 PM): sbb tu pengakuan syahadah ni penting dlm keyakinan kita..

saya telah hentikan perbincangan setelah beberapa minit...perbincangan kali ini hanya untuk mengetahui sejauh mana pengetahuan Sara tentang syahdatain..
Perbincangan ini juga membuat saya menilai semula sejah mana saya membawa syahadah dalam kehidupan saya...

mohon doa kalian untuk sesi2 seterusnya..rupa2nya ramai lagi mereka seperti Sara...bila persoalan mereka tak ketemu jawapan tapi dibalas kemarahan,tohmah dan kelangsungan untuk melabel..akhirnya golongan ini mengambil jalan mudah untuk meninggalkan cahaya dan memilih 'short cut' untuk berada dalam samar..
Allahurabbuna..berharganya sebuah Iman dan kefahaman aqidah...
Thsabbit qulubana 'ala deenik..'ala tho'atik..

moga bertemu lagi..
insyaALLAH..

teratak AzHuda..32..seksyen 27...shah alam.....Malaysia..

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Sunday, February 15, 2009

a letter to ponder..

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Assalamualaikum dear readers...

i received this letter thru email via 'Imamindiachcapter yahoo group'...lets read together..

"The following is a life experience of Dr. Jeffrey. Please pray everyday that you grow up to be a Mujahid/ah Dr. and not fear death to serve the ummah. Allah has blessed us with good Drs. and brothers and sisters in Gaza. Please have in your heart always, that we will win soon.
When I wanted to cross the borders in Rafah, the brothers inside reminded me that the borders will be destroyed soon and we will be able to enter and exit as we wish.... Please say Ameen to this blessed doa.
Allahuakbar !!!
Abdul Latiff

ASLM

Dear friends,

It is now 4 days since we returned from our trip to Gaza /Cairo. Have been awaiting my respected elders/colleagues) to input first but since there appears none forthcoming, I will write my thoughts and experience and humbly request them to correct or input as necessary. (Pleae note These are my own personal views and do not represent any organisation including MERCY Malaysia. Please forward with discretion )

We left on a MERCY Malaysia mission on the 27th of January ( 8days after unilateral truce by Israel) after filling up our wills in sealed envelopes. Sent off by The MERCY office team,Dr Faizal Perdaus (acting Prez MERCY) our families and Dr Musa (x prez PPIM). The team consisted of Prof Hatta Shahrom (x PPIM president), Dr Fauziah Hassan (O&G, APSH,x treasurer,MERCY Malaysia), Dr Norherah, (Family practitioner) , Ms Reem Bashir( a sudanese psychologist) . After a 12 hour flight, 2 hrs stop ( no deplane in mumbai) we arrived in Cairo at 5 am on the 28th. Immediate briefing and off we were to the Rafah border about 4 hrs away except our driver got lost and we got a free tour of the sinai and the Suez canal. We finally reached the Rafah Egyptian border crossing at 430 pm. After 40 mins (which is like a record ,as most people who try to get into Gaza never manage to, and those who do wait hours to days on end, many leave for home with just having seen this border crossing.) we were through Egyptian Immigration. We praise Allah for everything.

We entered Gaza with the Azan of magrib at abt 530pm with the MERCY logistics officer En Hapis. On hand to greet us were Dr Ikram (Anaes Lecturer CUCMS) and Dr Al Amin(Surgeon Tawakal) who were the initial team in.(they had come in the day of the truce or just after). We proceeded to Palestinian immigration and were welcomed warmly. Prof Hatta even managed to get a soda from one of the officers. We then went to our lodgings and met the previous team under Dr Heng.,Drs Lai, Azlina, Asmarawati, Khairol, Shamsul.

Dr Azhar Abdul Aziz (x VP MERCY )who had come with the Qatar team was also there. I had tried to meet him in Kl last summer but Allah planned for us to meet in war torn Gaza.

We had been assigned to Nasser hospital,in Khan Younis, 20 mins north of Rafah, named after the Egytian prez who had funded it. 300 bed and handled 500 patients during the Israeli aggression. Some department good, most run down. Many equipment down as no spare parts allowed in and no maintenance. The only equipment working in physiotherapy was the manual one and one traction. The rest were all broken down. The ECG, EST machines etc were ancient. Dr Fauziah,Dr Norhera surved the OG departemt and other O&G hospitals and saw areas that needed improvement. Prof Hatta and Ms Reem were taken on trips to asess the psychosocial needs of the Gazans.

On the first day there was a drone attack in front of the hospital. Maybe 10-15 m from where I was doing my rounds. There was a loud bang, flames and massive smoke. 2 mujahidin on a motor bike had been targeted by the drone. Both survived alhamdulillah altho one had to go to Ot. 2 other passers by were also sent to OT.13 kids who were around had to be treated for shrapnel wounds. Prof Hatta who had gone to A&E noted that the children were stoic and did not cry even though they were in obvious pain. Most treated as outpatients. This was during a supposed truce. Death is very near in Gaza.

We toured the areas of destruction and I found comparison with the Earthquate in Adapazari in Turkey where we had also been on a MERCY mission. Whole blocks were flattend. Olive groves were uprooted, schools, Universities, mosques were not spared. Parliament was destroyrd.Even UN schools,building were damaged.The Islamic Universtity of Gaza had two blocks that housed 75 labs totally destroyd. They ahd just acquired some DNA machines abt 3 million worth as they have quite bit of genetic disease in Palestine.These wrere destroyed. The dean of Medicine was an old friend from my days in Dublin. Holds an Irish passport but when asked to evacute by the Irish ambasador in Tel Aviv he refused.Indeed we were told that when the borders were opened Gazans came back instead of leaving for Egypt..” This is our land, we were born here and we will die here was what they said.”

The mosques in front of Shifa hospital was just a pile of rubble with a fruit carton written on it masjid Shifa. The new wing of the hospital had also been hit. This hospital had been taking the brunt of the casualties. They have a collection of gruesome slides of the victims, killed, maimed, kids adults, women.. At the height of the conflict they were taking in 200 patients an hour.

The homes of ordinary Gazans were also piles of rubble. Some had just been built. They had moved to relatives homes or had to erect temporrary shelters.one was just the black plastic sheeting It was winter and I was wrapped in 4 layers. I wonderd how they coped especially the kids. May Allah always protect them.

Everywhere we went were greeted very warmly that we were feeling guilty. We would be served good food altho I dont believe they themselves were taking as good as they were serving their guests. This was true Muslim Arab hospitality. In severe adversity , guests were still treated well. May Allah increase His bounty on them.

We heard stories of the mujahideen and the help that Alllah had sent them. Malaikat had come and fought with them. One mujahid had been blown up to pieces and the only piece of him left had a beautiful aroma that was smelt by all the villager who had come. They would be hiding and waiting for the enemy for days surviving only on water and dates. Tanks would blow up and their explosives still be intact. A mujahid heard a voice telling him to wait in his hiding place till he had a chance to strike the enemy,which he did. The enemy claimed that they had fought with ghosts and with people in white uniforms. The mujahideen did not wear white uniforms. May Allah always be with the steadfast.

The thing that struck us most was their spirit. Indeed they were carrying on as normal a life as they could. As much as the enemy wanted them to surrender and cower they stood firm and fought. For 23 days they were bombarded from sea,land and air and they were steadfast. The craters made by F 16 bombs were nearly two storeys high! The enemy with 500 tanks could not enter the cities except fight at the peripheries. In the 6 day war(1967) 3 Arab nations were defeated in 6 days! We were told that there were even weddings during the onslaught. Children were playing football and were trying to go to school. May Allah continue to be with them.

We met amazing people. A lady we met told us that after the enemy had bombed the mosques her 14 year old son would pray every prayer in the mosque for he wished to be syahid while worshipping Allah. She had told him that if he decided to become a mujahid himself he must tell her so as for her to make doa for him and not find out only when he was syahid. Prof Hatta/Ms Reem were offered bowls of soup by a refugee grandma who had her grandson syahid. She was sitting amongst a pile of rubble that had been her abode. After relating her story to them and crying a minute she offered the little food she had to them. May Allah alleviatee all their suffering!

Everytime we asked “what can we do for you?” The answer would be;

“Please do not stop making doa for us”.

They did not ask for money or food or anything material only that we do not stop beseeching Allah to help them in their struggle against a merciless enemy.

We met with persons who told us “We promise you three things:-

  1. We will defend this land

  2. We will liberate this land

  3. We will pray with you in Al Aqsa one day soon”

Medically the Drs are quite a lot. They however have not been able to leave Gaza for training and some of them had not been out for 10-12 years,.They thus need help in training. Equipment needs to be upgraded and new equipment added. InsyaAllah we have made these recommendations to MERCY Malaysia. There is also plan to build a rehab centre in south Gaza. There is a state of the art one in North Gaza that was damaged but still functioning. There is also plan to setup a MERCY Malaysia-Palestine psychosocial centre.

We were supposed to stay till the 4th February but were asked to evacuate as there was worry about increased bombings.There had been one near our lodgings the day after we arrived. On midnite of the 1st we received sms and calls from the embassy,and MERCY base camp Cairo for us to evacuate asap. We heard six bombs dropped by F16s near the house and the house shuddered with the explosions. We moved to the ground floor and evacuated the next day back to cairo.

We had few more meetings to attend and a few more things to do but fate was such that we had to leave. We could leave when things got hot but the Gazans cannot. As Mr Ging , UN officer in Gaza said , “There is no safe place in Gaza”.

Indeed, Death is close in Gaza or tis the shortest path to Jannah

I wish to record my gratitude to

  1. Our understanding families who had understood the need for us to go

  2. MERCY Malaysia for providing the opportunity

  3. The MERCY team in Cairo

  4. The Malaysia Embassy in Cairo who had been amazingly helpful in facilitating our entry into Gaza especially En Fauzi

  5. My extraordinary teammates, May Allah bless them all.

Wassallam and May Allah protect all those in Gaza,


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