SENTIASA SELAMANYA

sentiasa selamanya saya meletakkan pergantungan dan tawakkal pd ALLAH dlm setiap usaha dan tindakan..

still weak..

still poorly unwell..

pahitnya hidup di dunia..teringat pujangga arab..”ad dunia sijnul mukmin wa jannatul kaafir”…”dunia itu penjara bg org mu’min dan syurga bagi yg kafir”

moga setiap yg berlaku ini membuka jalan kpd bertambahnya iman dan sabar..moga benarlah juga ‘penjara’ ini buat hamba yg kerdil ini..

baru sampai rumah td about 11pm..terus ayah hulur ubat..written on the packaging..”(norculate)stop bleeding”..cukup 3 minggu bleeding nih..profusely bleeding..hanya ALLAH yg tahu betapa sukar melalui hidup seharian dlm keadaan begini..badan tersangat lesu..mcm kereta tanpa minyak…kejap2 nk colapse..lost blood..bukan perkara remeh..tambahan with my thalassemic history..mujur semangat tak lesu..thanks to kak long..she understand a lot!!..she help me in any ways she could..

not only my body become weak..utk ibadah pun bertambah cabaran..setiap kali nk tunaikan solat,perlu bersihkan darah2 yg menitik..ALLAH,terimalah ibadah hambaMu.

side effects ubat contribute more problem..i just kept it to myself..but few times i threw it in words while chit chatting with kak long because she knew the medication i took have unwelcome side effects..the one ayah give me just now (norculate),i dont know yet what's going to be..wether it too have unpleasant side effects or nothing.. lets look in a way 'the glass is half full' rather than 'the glass is half empty'..both have the same meaning but differ in a way of thinking..

nurul,thnks so much for ur non stop concern and support..sorry i cant answer ur call last time..i was very weak even to press an answer key on the phone..hope to meet you sometimes..i’ve plan a vacation to meet u..just wait..insyaALLAH

syukran lak and jazakumullahu khairan kastheera..to all of you who give prayer for me and for your persistent support..

i am stronger..even nothing seems to get better…but to be true,i feel better each day whenever i realise am only a musafir in this ephemeral world..i’ve a mission to fulfill in whatever circumstances this life turn out to be..

tc everyone..may ALLAH bless us throughout life with patience and taqwa..

P/S:i'll write soon...insyaALLAH